Why? What is the matter with you, sis?

Sahabat, kenapa kamu tidak mau jujur kepadaku? Mengenai masalahmu / apa pun juga yang menyangkut diriku. Mengapa? Mengapa? Padahal selama ini, aku udah jujur kepadamu bahwa dulu aku pernah suka sama orang yang kamu suka. Apa aku masih ada salah? Bilang saja. Dari mulai yang aku ikut campur, sampai yang di blog mu itu. Aku benar-benar tidak tahu. Ya, yang mengenai ikut campur itu aku juga pertama kali ngga di kasih tahu langsung sama kamu, melainkan ****. Dari **** ngomong di Lia, aku perhatiin kata demi kata. Dan aku merasa yang kamu maksud adalah aku. Tadinya di sekolah, aku akan menghindar sementara dengan tujuan agar tidak mengganggumu. Dan saat istirahat aku bertekad untuk bilang ke kamu tentang masalah yang "ikut campur" itu. Dan ternyata apa? Kamu hanya bilang "Hmm, iya. Eh, tapi ngga sepenuhnya lo kali, nis.". Gue udah minta maaf yang sebesar-besarnya, tapi kenyataannya apa? Kamu tidak mau mengaku kalau itu yang kamu maksud itu sepenuhnya adalah AKU. Dan aku sadar, aku ternyata tidak boleh dekat-dekat lagi dengan orang yang kamu suka. Oke, dan baru ku sadari, selama ini sahabat aku itu bukan kamu, melainkan orang lain yang lebih spesial ketimbang kamu. Ternyata, kamu hanya sebagai teman dekat aku saja. Walau begitu, kita jangan sampai putus pertemanan ya? Aku janji, saat masuk nanti aku akan bilang siapa kamu itu. Bye

Cinta

Memang, seperti yang kita tahu, cinta ngga pernah habis buat di bahas. Dari zaman nenek moyang kita, bahkan sampai zaman cucu cicit kita entah kapan nanti. Ratusan bahkan ribuan buku dibuat dengan tema cinta, tapi tetap saja belum pernah ada buku yang dapat mendefinisikan cinta secara sempurna. Walau berkali-kali belajar mengenai cinta, kita tetap ngga akan bisa memahami kalau belum merasakannya sendiri.

Cinta memang butuh pengenalan. Cinta tidak akan pernah dapat di definisikan karena cinta selalu tumbuh dan bersemi di saat yang sama sekali tidak terduga. Yang kita butuh untuk mengenal dan merasakan cinta adalah kejujuran dan kepercayaan. Jujur pada hati, jujur pada diri sendiri. Jujur bahwa segala sesuatu yang kita rasakan adalah nyata. Peryaca bahwa cinta itu indah. Percaya bahwa cinta akan berakhir bahagia. saat cinta itu tumbuh tulus dari hati yang paling dalam.

Pada dasarnya, cinta itu memang indah. Bahkan Tuhan menciptakan cintadan menempatkannya di dunia ini dengan maksud agar makhluk ciptaannya dapat hidup penuh dengan cinta. Kadang rintangan dan tantangan dalam hidup membuat seseorang tidak sepenuhnya melihat keindahan cinta. Cinta yang sesungguhnya hanya dapat dirasakan apabila kita mau berusaha, siap menerima, dan membuka ketukan penuh cinta....

Terima kasih Tuhan....

It was great

YES, akhirnya tadi gue pergi juga ke Gramedia. Setelah sekian lama aku menunggu {kayak lagu ridho roma}, lho?. Hahaha, ya intinya hari ini gue ke Gramedia. Di gramedia, gue pengen beli lebih dari 10 novel, hahaha bagus-bagus sih. Berhubung uang bokap gue yang ngga cukup, ya akhirnya gue beli 2 aja, cukup kok. Lagian, novel di rumah juga belom gue selesaiin baca. Gue pertama bingung mau milih yang mana, banyaaaaaak banget. Akhirnya novel pertama yang gue beli adalah novel yang berjudul "Dewey", ceritanya tentang seekor kucing perpustakaan yang diambil dari kisah nyata. Tadinya sih gue ngga mau beli, tapi sumpah neror abis tuh novel. Soalnya di setiap rak buku tuh ada, gila ck ck ck. Yaudah gue beli yang itu. Terus gue bingung beli novel yang ke dua. Dan akhirnya gue nemuin novel yang judulnya "Secret Garden". Kayaknya sih seru tentang petualangan2 gitu. Yaudah gue beli. Hahaha

Di perjalanan pulang, gue udah lapeer banget. Maklum gue orangnya gampang laper. Padahal tadi udah makan, lama-lama bisa gendut nih gue {Di sisi lain,... Adisti : "Ngga papa dhir, biar gue ada temennya, Hahaha. LOL"}. Gue makan somay 2 mangkok dan 1 mangkok es buah. Hmmm, kenyang gue. Hahaha

Sesampai di rumah, gue istirahat. Tiba-tiba ada sms dari tuuuut. Ya ampun, ngga nyangka gue bakal di sms dia. Huh, tapi sayang, gue udah ngga suka dia lagi. Walau begitu, gue masih kangeeeen banget sms-an sama dia. Udah lama sih.

Cukup sekian, dan terimakasih.
Bye

Lah lah lah?

Waktu gue mau konser hari sabtu di usmar ismail, gue ke tempat kuliah nyokap gue dulu, nungguin nyokap gue pulang. Sambil nungguin, gue, adri, sama bokap gue shalat ashar dulu. Waktu lagi jalan.... Adek gue lagi bicarain Guno-guno gitu, secara adek gue temennya si guno di facebook. Terus
Adri : "Kak, kakak suka sama guno ya kak?"
Dalam hati gue : "What?Adri kok ngomongnya gini sih,idih." ada ayah gue pula, kan malu-maluin
Bokap gue : "Dri, kakak kan suka nya sama pati.. Iya ngga kak?"
Gue : "Hah? udah ngga lagi kok. Pati kan sekarang sama Rini. Ih adri, kak guno kan sama kak diani, jadi mana mungkin sih kakak sama kak guno?"
Bokap gue : Jadi, kakak sekarang suka sama siapa nih?"
Gue : "Ngga suka sama siapa siapa kok." {Padahal sih sebenernya ada}
Bokap gue : "Tapi kakak juga jangan terlalu rendah diri gitu dong."
Gue : "Iya deh.. Udah ah jangan ngomongin itu terus. Males"

Itu semua nama gue samarkan, biar ngga ketahuan. Ya, walaupun ada yang tahu sih, tapi kan gue kasian kalo pake nama langsung. Oke oke? Bye

Kamis, 24 Juni 2010

Halo semuanya. Gue mau cerita nih..

Jam 10.30 gue udah ada di Lia, ada make up oral gue. Alhasil, waktu gue liat di selembaran kertas di bapak-bapak yang menguji gue dan gue kira itu guru "GAY" {soalnya tampangnya gay}, ternyata nilai gue ngga gue kira yang ternyata nilai 1,2,3 : 5,5,4, dan kalo di rata-rata, gue dapet 4,6. Wah, sungguh tak terduga gue dapet nilai segitu. padahal waktu et-3 dan et-4, nilai gue dibawa itu. Hahahaha, puas deh gue.

Setelah gue oral, gue, dita, dan adisti-->Presiden Republik Antena, pergi ke MM. Tia juga ikut, tapi dia cuman pengen bareng doang ke rumahnya. Sesampai di MM, kita ke KFC dulu karena perutnya udah KERONCONGAN, gila perut gue bunyi terus. Di KFC setelah makan kita nunggu istirahat dulu sebentar, kan baru makan, Masa langsung jalan-jalan? Kan ngga enak. Iseng gue sama dita membuat ramuan yang ngga jelas+menjijikan. Dita mencampurkan bahan sambal dan saos tomat, dan karena Pepsi gue ngga habis, gue tuangin ke tuh ramuan, diaduk dengan tulang paha ayam sisa gue, dita, dan adisti. Alhasil, ternyata menjijikan. Hiiiii Masing mending sambel campur saos tomat. Ini apa coba?

Habis itu kita ke Gramedia, nyari novel buat bacaan selama liburan{ngga juga sih}. Gue pertama mau beli yang judulnya kalo ngga salah "The Way To Life Forever" tapi waktu gue liat di baliknya, ternyata itu novel buat Dewasa, Wuah? Yaudah jadinya gue beli yang judulnya "The Golden Road". Di kashier, tiba-tiba
Dita : "Eh, ada beiby, ada beiby"
Gue sih pertama kali ngga peryaca, hahaha maaf ya dit. Dan ternyata beneran deh ada si Beiby sama ibunya. Reflek, gue, adisti, dan dita langsung menhghadap belakang biar ngga keliatan, hehehe bercanda beb. Waktu terus berjalan, dan gue sama dita belom shalat dzuhur. Yaudah, gue ke mushala aja, biar ngga dosa {apa banget dah gue}. Waktu mau turun
Gue : "Eh, ada Bayu, ada Bayu--->Aya.."
Dita : "Hahaha"
Adisti : "Kenapa dit?"
Dita : "Ngga papa. Mau ketemu siapa lagi kita hari ini? Banyak banget perasaan yang ketemu di sini."
Gue : "iya juga sih, hahaha"

Dita agak malu-malu kucing tuh, hahahahha. Terus sesampai di mushala, tiba-tiba Aya sms Dita. Isinya.................{ada deh}. Habis shalat kami jalan-jalan keliling MM. Dari MM 1 sampe MM 2 dan dari lantaibawah sampai lantai atas. pokoknya semua di kelilingi deh. Sampe sampe capek, kami nyari tempat duduk. Huah, pegel banget gue. Waktu gue lagi sms Ayah gue, tiba tiba ada beiby. TIDAK, ketahuan deh kami ada di MM. Huah, hahaha. lalu, kami menuju Cindy dan tidak beli apa-apa. gue sih merasa ngga enak. Waktu keluar dari Cindy, tampang gue takut aja. Masa kata adisti tampang gue kayak orang yang ngambil barang-barang tanpa bayar terus kabur? Elah, emang iya ya? Ngga ngeh gue. Karna kami capek, pulang deh. Gue dan dita berpisah dengan adisti yang berbeda arah. DADAH adisti/antenaaa/.......

Gue sama dita nyari angkot.
Dita : "Nis, nyari angkotnya yang agak penuh aja ya? gue takut kalo sepi-sepi."
Gue : "Oke-oke. Gue juga ngga mau kalee"

Udah gitu, gue dapet angkot nya yang penuuuuuuuh banget. Sampe-sampe gue mau ngga mau harus duduk di kursi yang paling pinggir, biasa buat tempat knek nyari penumpang. Sampe rumah jam 16.00. Dan sesampai di rumah gue nulis blog ini deh. Gitu cerita gue hari ini.

Cukup segini ajalah. Mohon maaf terlebih dahulu jika ada salah kata. Bye all...

Hmm,....

Ya ampun, gue seneng banget....... Hari kamis kemarin, gue sama biiip main liat-liatan. Huah, biiip itu lucu, kocak, kadang suka ngga jelas{udah lah}, dan menurut gue dia juga menarik. Gue sih emang suka sama dia. Tapi hal ini baru gue dan Adisti aja yang tau. Hahahaha, makasih ya Adisti, lo mau ngejaga rahasia gue... Hahahaha, sama kayak wulan aja. Hahaha, dasar si BEEP{wulan}. Walaupun gue ngga tau si BEEp itu siapa{Beep itu nama samaran orang yang wulan sukain}, biarin ajalah. Tapi wulan kasian tau. Ternyata ada orang yang pengen tau banget si wulan suka sama siapa. Dia sampe maksa-maksa wulan buat ngasih tau. Dan waktu wulan ngasih tau, ternyata dia di belakang si wulan nge-beberin/nge-bocorin orang yang wulan suka ke temen-temennya. Dasar Blabber{tukang ngebocorin rahasia orang lain} lo... Huuu
Ah, udahlah. jangan bicarain wulan terus, bosen. Hahaha..{Sorry wul..}

Pesan buat Adisti : Lo jangan bilang ke siapa-siapa kalo gue suka sama biiip. Awas aja lo. Walaupun lo dipaksa-paksa, jangan pernah mau dong.. Gue ngga mau kejadiannya sama persis sama wulan. {Beh, bicara wulan lagi} Gue takutnya orang yang maksa-maksa lo itu udah tau gue suka sama biiip, ntar dia ngebocorin rahasia gue. Huah.. Gue serius.

Eh, udah ah. Semakin siang, gue makin rada-rada ngga jelas. Hahahaha
Cukup sekian posting dari gue..

Lagu yang sering didengerin di rumah..

Vanessa Carlton - A Thousand Miles lyrics

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I
Don't....

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd

And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight

Looklet - Look: Peach Fireworks Party

Looklet - Look: Peach Fireworks Party

Akhirnya gue bisa bikin look juga. Yaa, walaupun ngga bagus-bagus amat. Tapi gue udah mulai bisa bikin kayak ginian. Hehehe

Charlie Chaplin's life

Charlie Chaplin, considered to be one of the most pivotal stars of the early days of Hollywood, lived an interesting life both in his films and behind the camera. He is most recognized as an icon of the silent film era, often associated with his popular "Little Tramp" character; the man with the toothbrush mustache, bowler hat, bamboo cane, and a funny walk.

Charles Spencer Chaplin was born in Walworth, London, England on April 26th, 1889 to Charles and Hannah (Hill) Chaplin, both music hall performers, who were married on June 22nd, 1885. After Charles Sr. separated from Hannah to perform in New York City, Hannah then tried to resurrect her stage career. Unfortunately, her singing voice had a tendency to break at unexpected moments. When this happened, the stage manager spotted young Charlie standing in the wings and led him on stage, where five-year-old Charlie began to sing a popular tune. Charlie and his half-brother, Syd Chaplin (born Sydney Hawkes), spent their lives in and out of charity homes and workhouses between their mother's bouts of insanity. Hannah was committed to Cane Hill Asylum in May of 1903 and lived there until 1921, when Chaplin moved her to California.

Chaplin began his official acting career at the age of eight, touring with The Eight Lancashire Lads. At 18 he began touring with Fred Karno's vaudeville troupe, joining them on the troupe's 1910 US tour. He traveled west to California in December 1913 and signed on with Keystone Studios' popular comedy director Mack Sennett, who had seen Chaplin perform on stage in New York. Charlie soon wrote his brother Syd, asking him to become his manager. While at Keystone, Chaplin appeared in and directed 35 films, starring as the Little Tramp in nearly all. In November 1914 he left Keystone and signed on at Essanay, where he made 15 films. In 1916, he signed on at Mutual and made 12 films. In June 1917 Chaplin signed up with First National Studios, after which he built Chaplin Studios. In 1919 he and Douglas Fairbanks, Mary Pickford and D.W. Griffith formed United Artists (UA).

Chaplin's life and career was full of scandal and controversy. His first big scandal was during World War I, during which time his loyalty to England, his home country, was questioned. He had never applied for US citizenship, but claimed that he was a "paying visitor" to the United States. Many British citizens called Chaplin a coward and a slacker. This and his other career eccentricities sparked suspicion with FBI chief J. Edgar Hoover and the House Un-American Activities Council (HUAC), who believed that he was injecting Communist propaganda into his films. Chaplin's later film The Great Dictator (1940), which was his first "talkie", also created a stir. In the film Chaplin plays a humorous caricature of Adolf Hitler. Some thought the film was poorly done and in bad taste. However, it grossed over $5 million and earned five Academy Award Nominations.

Another scandal occurred when Chaplin briefly dated 22-year-old Joan Barry. However, Chaplin's relationship with Barry came to an end in 1942, after a series of harassing actions from her. In May of 1943 Barry returned to inform Chaplin that she was pregnant, and filed a paternity suit, claiming that the unborn child was his. During the 1944 trial blood tests proved that Chaplin was not the father, but at the time blood tests were inadmissible evidence and he was ordered to pay $75 a week until the child turned 21. Chaplin was also scrutinized for his support in aiding the Russian struggle against the invading Nazis during World War II, and the U.S. government questioned his moral and political views, suspecting him of having Communist ties. For this reason HUAC subpoenaed him in 1947. However, HUAC finally decided that it was no longer necessary for him to appear for testimony. Conversely, when Chaplin and his family traveled to London for the premier of Limelight (1952), he was denied re-entry to the United States. In reality, the government had almost no evidence to prove that he was a threat to national security. He and his wife decided, instead, to settle in Switzerland.

Chaplin was married four times and had a total of 11 children. In 1918 he wed Mildred Harris, they had a son together, Norman Spencer Chaplin, who only lived three days. Chaplin and Mildred were divorced in 1920. He married Lita Grey in 1924, who had two sons, Charles Chaplin Jr. and Sydney Chaplin. They were divorced in 1927. In 1936, Chaplin married Paulette Goddard and his final marriage was to Oona O'Neill (Oona Chaplin), daughter of playwright Eugene O'Neill in 1943. Oona gave birth to eight children: Geraldine Chaplin, Michael Chaplin, Josephine Chaplin, Victoria Chaplin, Eugene, Jane, Annette-Emilie and Christopher Chaplin.

In contrast to many of his boisterous characters, Chaplin was a quiet man who kept to himself a lot. He also had an "un-millionaire" way of living. Even after he had accumulated millions, he continued to live in shabby accommodations.

In 1921 Chaplin was decorated by the French government for his outstanding work as a filmmaker, and was elevated to the rank of Officer of the Legion of Honor in 1952. In 1972 he was honored with an Academy Award for his "incalculable effect in making motion pictures the art form of the century." In 1975 England's Queen Elizabeth II knighted him. Chaplin's other works included musical scores he composed for many of his films. He also authored two autobiographical books, "My Autobiography" in 1964 and its companion volume, "My Life in Pictures" in 1974. Chaplin died of natural causes on December 25, 1977 at his home in Switzerland.

In 1978, Chaplin's corpse was stolen from its grave and was not recovered for three months; he was re-buried in a vault surrounded by cement. Charlie Chaplin was considered one of the greatest filmmakers in the history of American cinema, whose movies were and still are popular throughout the world, and have even gained notoriety as time progresses. His films show, through the Little Tramp's positive outlook on life in a world full of chaos, that the human spirit has and always will remain the same.

Beethoven's life

Ludwig van Beethoven was baptised on December 17th 1770 at Bonn. His family originated from Brabant, in Belgium. His father was musician at the Court of Bonn, with a definite weakness for drink. His mother was always described as a gentle, retiring woman, with a warm heart. Beethoven referred to her as his "best friend". The Beethoven family consisted of seven children, but only the three boys survived, of whom Beethoven was the eldest.


At an early age, Beethoven took an interest in music, and his father taught him day and night, on returning to the house from music practice or the tavern. Without doubt, the child was gifted, and his father Johann envisaged creating a new Mozart, a child prodigy.

On March 26th 1778, at the age of 7 1/2, Beethoven gave his first know public performance, at Cologne. His father announced that he was 6 years old. Because of this, Beethoven always thought that he was younger than he actually was. Even much later, when he received a copy of his baptism certificate, he thought that it belonged to his brother Ludwig Maria, who was born two years before him, and died as a child.

But the musical and teaching talents of Johann were limited. Soon Ludwig learned music, notably the organ and composition by renowned musicians, such as Gottlob Neefe. Neefe recognised the how extraordinarily talented Beethoven was. As well as teaching him music, he made the works of philosophers, ancient and modern, known to Beethoven.

In 1782, before the age of 12, Beethoven published his first work: 9 variations, in C Minor, for Piano, on a march by Ernst Christoph Dressler (WoO 63). And the following year, in 1783, Neefe wrote in the "Magazine of Music", about his student: "If he continues like this he will be, without doubt, the new Mozart".

In June 1784, on Neefe's recommendations, Ludwig was appointed organist of the court of Maximilian Franz, Elector of Cologne. He was 14. This post enabled him to frequent new circles, other than those of his father and friends of his family. Here he met people who were to remain friends for the rest of his life: The Ries family, the von Breuning family and the charming Eleonore, Karl Amenda, the violinist, Franz Gerhard Wegeler, a doctor, and a dear friend who also went to Vienna, etc.

At home, little by little, Ludwig replaced his father. Financially first of all, because Johann, often under the influence of drink, was less and less capable of keeping up his role at the court. The young Beethoven felt responsible for his two younger brothers, an idea he kept for the rest of his life, sometimes to the extent of being excessive.

Prince Maximilian Franz was also aware of Beethoven's gift, and so he sent Beethoven to Vienna, in 1787, to meet Mozart and to further his musical education. Vienna was, after all, the beacon city in terms of culture and music. There exist only texts of disputable authenticity on the subject of this meeting between Mozart and Beethoven. Mozart is thought to have said "Don't forget his name - you will hear it spoken often."!

But a letter called Beethoven back to Bonn: his mother was dying. The only person in his family with whom he had developed a strong and loving relationship passed away on July 17th 1787.

Five years later, in 1792, Beethoven went back to Vienna, benefiting from another grant, for two years, by the Prince Elector, again to pursue his musical education. He never went back to the town of his birth. His friend Waldstein wrote to him: "You shall receive Mozart's spirit from Haydn's hands"...

At Vienna, the young musician took lessons with Haydn, then with Albrechtsberger and Salieri. He captured the attention of, and astonished, Vienna, with his virtuosity and his improvisations on piano. In 1794, Beethoven composed his opus 1, three trios for piano. The following year, Beethoven made his first public performance at Vienna (an "Academy") whereby each musician was to play his own work. Then followed a tour: Prague, Dresden, Leipzig and Berlin before leaving for a concert in Budapest.



Beethoven made numerous acquaintances at Vienna. Everybody in the musical and aristocratic world admired the young composer. These music-lovers were Beethoven's greatest supporters. He became angry regularly with one or another of them, often making honourable amends soon afterwards. His talent excused his excessive, impulsive behaviour.

In 1800, Beethoven organised a new concert at Vienna including, notably, the presentation of his first symphony. Although today we find this work classical, and close to the works of Mozart and Haydn, at the time certain listeners found the symphony strange, overly extravagant, and even risqué. This genius, Beethoven, who was still a young, new composer, was already pushing the established boundaries of music.

In 1801 Beethoven confessed to his friends at Bonn his worry of becoming deaf. At Heiligenstadt, in 1802, he wrote a famous text which expressed his disgust at the unfairness of life: that he, a musician, could become deaf was something he did not want to live through. But music made him carry on. And he wrote that he knew that he still had many other musical domains to explore, to discover, and to pass on. Beethoven did not commit suicide, rather, knowing that his handicap was getting worse and worse, he threw himself into his greatest works: exceptional sonatas for piano (notably The Storm, opus 31), the second and the third symphonies- The Eroica - and of course many more.

Beethoven wrote this third symphony in honour of a great man, Bonaparte. He was seen as the liberator of the people, opening, from the French Revolution, a door to hope. When the First Consul declared himself Emporor, Beethoven became enraged and scowled out Bonaparte's name from the score.

On April 7th 1805 the Eroica symphony was played for the first time.

Meanwhile, Beethoven had finally finished his opera, Leonore, the only opera he ever wrote. He wrote and re-wrote four different overtures. The name of the opera therefore changed to Fidelio, against the wishes of the composer. November 20th 1805 was the date of the opening performance … before a thin audience of French officers. This was because Napolean, head of the army, had captured Vienna for the first time. This happened again in 1809.

In the years that followed, the creative activity of the composer became intense. He composed many symphonies, amongst which were the Pastoral, the Coriolan Overture, and the famous Letter for Elise. He took on many students, those he found young and attractive, and he therefore fell in love with several of them. The Archbishop Rudolph, brother of the emperor, also became his student, his friend and eventually one of his benefactors.

In 1809, Beethoven wanted to leave Vienna, at the invitation of Jérome Bonaparte. His long-standing friend, the Countess Anna Marie Erdödy, kept him at Vienna with the help of his wealthiest admirers: the Archbishop Rudolph, the Prince Lobkowitz and the Prince Kinsky. These men gave Beethoven an annual grant of 4 000 florins, allowing him to live without financial constraint. The only condition was that Beethoven was not to leave Vienna. Beethoven accepted. This grant made him the first independent composer. Before this contract musicians and composers alike (even Bach, Mozart and Haydn), became servants in the houses of wealthy aristocratic families. They were thus part of the domestic staff, with no more rights than any other, but with the added task of composition and performance. Thus, for the musician of the day, Beethoven had outstanding circumstances: he was free to write what he wanted, when he wanted, under command or not, as he pleased.

In 1812, Beethoven went for hydrotherapy at Teplitz, where he wrote his ardent letter to "The Immortal Beloved". This letter which was found in a secret draw with the Heiligenstadt Testament, has not stopped the theories and suppositions of researchers and biographers ever since. Numerous women amongst his students and friends have been, in turn, proposed as the recipient of this letter. Unless a new document is discovered (perhaps within the possessions of a private collector) it is likely that the truth about this mysterious woman will remain a secret.

At the end of July 1812, Beethoven met Goethe, under the organisation of Bettina Brentano. These two great men admired each other, but didn't understand each other. The composer found the poet too servile, and the poet last estimation was that Beethoven was "completely untamed". Beethoven admired Goethe, he put to music several of his poems. I always regretted not having been better understood by Goethe.

Then one of his benefactors, the Prince Lobkowitz, fell into financial difficulty, and the Prince Kinski died from falling off his horse. Kinski's descendant decided to put an end to the financial obligations towards Beethoven. Here started one of the composer's many attempts at saving his financial independence.

The Czech Johann Nepomuk Maelzel took up contact with Beethoven. Inventor of genius, and probably inventor of the metronome, Maelzel had already met Beethoven and had created various devices to help Beethoven with his hearing: acoustic cornets, a listening system linking up to the piano, etc. In 1813, Beethoven composed 'The Victory of Wellington', a work written for a mechanical instrument made by Maelzel, the "panharmonica" (or "panharmonicon"). But it was above all the metronome which helped evolve music and Beethoven, who had taken interest straight away, noted scrupulously the markings on his scores, so that his music could be played how he wished.

The Academy of 1814 regrouped his work, as well as the seventh and eighth symphonies. This was also the time of the re-writing of Leonore as Fidelio, Beethoven's only opera. This work eventually became successful before the public.

Then the Congress of Vienna met, which brought together all the heads of state to decided the future of Europe after Napoleon. This was one of Beethoven's moment of glory. He was invited to play many times, bringing him recognition and admiration of which he could be truly proud.


On November 15th 1815, Kaspar Karl, Beethoven's brother, died. He left behind his wife, whom the composer referred to as 'The queen of the night' due to the pastimes of the widow, as well as a son, Karl, who was 9. Here Beethoven's life was to change dramatically. His brother had written that he wished Karl's guardianship to be exercised by both his wife and his brother Ludwig. Beethoven took this role very seriously, but the 45 year old celibate who could no longer hear found it difficult to live with and understand a child, and then a young man. This cohabitation was the cause of a new trial against the mother of the child, a generation conflict and numerous troubles.

In 1816, Carl Czerny (future teacher of Franz Liszt and once Beethoven's student) became Karl's music teacher, but didn't find the talent in the boy which Beethoven hoped him to posses. At this time , he ended his cycle of lieders 'To the distant loved one'and drafted the first theme for his ninth symphony.

Two years later, the Archduke Rudolph became Cardinal and Beethoven began composing his mass in D. It was never ready for the intronisation, but the work was rich beyond compare.

Gioachino Rossini triumphed in Vienna in 1822 where he met Beethoven again. The language barrier and Beethoven's deafness meant that they could only exchange brief words. The Viennese composer tolerated Italian opera only in moderation - he found it lacked seriousness.

The ninth symphony was practically finished in 1823, the same year as the Missa Solemnis. Liszt, who was 11, met Beethoven who came to his concert on April 13th. He congratulated the young virtuoso heartily who, years later, transcribed the entirety of Beethoven's symphonies for piano.

May 7th 1824 was the date of the first playing of the ninth symphony and despite musical difficulties, and problems in the sung parts, it was a success. Unfortunately it was not financially rewarding. Financial problems constantly undermined the composer. He always had money put to one side, but he was keeping it for his nephew.

Then began the period of the last quartets, which are still difficult even for today's audience, which knows how to interpret his other works. He started to compose his tenth symphony.

In 1826, Beethoven caught cold coming back from his brother's place, with whom he had rowed again. The illness complicated other health problems from which Beethoven had suffered all his life. He passed away encircled by his closest friends on March 26th 1827, just as a storm broke out.

The funeral rites took place at the church of the Holy Trinity. It is estimated that between 10 000 and 30 000 people attended. Franz Schubert, timid and a huge admirer of Beethoven, without ever having become close to him, was one of the coffin bearers, along with other musicians. Schubert died the next year and was buried next to Beethoven.

The actor Heinrich Anschütz read the funeral prayer written by Franz Grillparzer, (a great writer), in front of the doors of theWähring cemetery (now Schubert Park).

Doris Day - Que Sera Sera Lyrics

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

Apa aja boleh -.-

Ngga, lo salah. Seharusnya lo bilang ke gue sejak awal kalo lo suka sama dia. Jadi gue kan ngga merasa gimanaa gitu{susah diungkapkan}. Lagipula gue ngga mau tuh jadian sama orang yang kayak gitu. walaupun gue ditembak / apalah, gue ngga bakal mau nerima. Dan intinya, gue udah NGGA SUKA lagi sama dia. Silahkan ambil kalo lo mau. Terserah. Lagipula, gue udah suka kok sama temennya, oops!! Hahaha, yaudah deh segini aja balesan dari gue. Oh iya, satu hal lagi yang gue heran dari lo : Lo kenapa harus takut sih bilang ke gue? Santai aja kali. Manusia kan berhak menentukan siapa orang yang dia suka. Ok? Jadi setelah uas, lo harus bilang sejujurnya ke gue. Jujur jujur.. Ngga boleh bohong. Terus terang aja kalo lo suka sama dia. gue aja pernah terus terang ke blablabla kalo gue pernah suka sama orang yang blablabla suka. Dan kenyataannya, blablabla ngga marah kok. Jadi, lo bilang aja seJUJUR-JUJUR nya ke gue!!! Lagipula, lo lebih CANTIK kok dari gue dan lo lebih lebih berhak mendapatkan dia daripada gue. Gue emang bukan orang yang Cantik kayak lo.

Sick

Ya ampun, sekarang gue lagi sakit nih. Sakit panas, pilek, + radang tenggorokan. Gue sempet berfikir kalo sakit gue sampe uas semester 2 nanti. Ya Allah, mudah-mudahan jangan sampe deh. Gue kan ngga mau nilai-nilai gue turun gara-gara SAKIT doang. Malah sakitnya masih sampe sekarang pula. Gue berdoa mudah-mudahan sakitnya hanya sampe hari minggu aja deh. Biar gue bisa belajar giat {?} di rumah. Kan kalo lagi sakit, belajar itu adalah hal yang berat. Kemarin sore aja, sepulang sekolah, gue langsung muntah-muntah. Semua makanan yang gue makan di sekolah ikut serta keluat juga. Huah
Tapi yang paling ngga enak itu pilek. Soalnya kan ingusan, ih jijik dah gue.

Oke, cukup disini postingan dari gue. Seminggu lagi bertepatan dengan selesainya uas, gue akan bikin post yang baru. Ok ok?
Bye all....

Permintaan Maaf

Maafkan aku temanku jika aku sudah melakukan perbuatan itu kepadamu. Sebenernya aku tau kok kamu suka sama dia, tapi karena sifatku aja yang masih kayak anak kecil, jadi aku telah berbuat itu kepadamu. Ya, sebenarnya aku merasa sedih aja kalo orang yang aku suka ternyata suka kepada teman dekatku. Tapi percayalah, sebenarnya aku tidak mau melakukan perbuatan itu kepadamu. Yaa, walaupun aku menyukainya lebih dahulu dan orang yang kita suka pernah suka sama aku, tapi kan perasaan orang bisa berubah-rubah. Terserah dia mau suka sama siapa, hak-hak dia. Aku tak marah kok, teman. Aku bisa menerimanya kok dengan hati yang ikhlas. Walaupun itu susah banget, tapi aku akan terus berusaha menerimanya dengan hati yang ikhlas. Sebenernya aku merasa sakit. Tapi aku harus bisa, mau tak mau. Dan walaupun, kamu bilang ke aku kalo kamu NGGA SUKA sama dia, sebenrnya aku tau pasti di dalam hatimu tersimpan rasa suka dengan dia.

Once again, I'm so so so sorry. :{

Masya Allah, konser tunggal?

Ya ampun, waktu gue baru pulang ada telepon dari guru les piano gue, Bu MiMi. kata bu mimi, gue didaftarin ikut konser tunggal di manaaa gitu{gue lupa} tanggal 19 Juni bertepatan dengan akhirnya uas semester 2 gue. Walaupun uas udah selesai, ya tapi kan hari sebelum2 nya gue cuman belajar pelajaran sekolah buat uas, ngga ada waktu luang untuk latihan piano di rumah. Waduh, kalo gue di konser tunggal nanti ada skill yang salah gimana dong? Gue kan ngga mau.. Huhu, acaranya kan resmi banget. Itu acara dimana tempat les gue, Y2K ulang tahun yang ke-10. Berarti kan mainnya mau ngga mau harus lancar + ada dinamik dan perasaannya. Oh iya, malah nanti gue main lagu Phantasie mendelssohn pula, lagunya kan kalo menurut gue susah. Gue banyak yang belom lancar. Huaah gimana dong kalo gitu?
Fuih, yaudah deh. teman-teman, do'a kan saya ya agar di konser tunggal nanti saya tidak merasa tegang, deg-degan, dan grogi. Dan do'a kan juga agar permainan piano saya tidak ada yang salah-salah.

AMIIIIIIIIN

Sampai Menutup Mata-Acha Septriasa

Sumpah, lagunya sedih banget, tapi keren sih.

Embun di pagi buta
Menebarkan bau asa
Detik demi detik ku hitung
Inikah saat ku pergi

Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
Berikanlah aku hidup
Takkan ku sakiti dia
Hukum aku bila terjadi

Reff: aku tak mudah mencintai
Aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
Aku tak mudah mengatakan
Aku jatuh cinta

Senandungku hanya untuk cinta
Tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
Tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta
Sampai ku menutup mata
Cintaku sampai ku menutup mata

Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
Berikanlah aku hidup
Takkan ku sakiti dia
Hukum aku bila terjadi

Repeat reff

Akhirnya....

Akhirnya gue bisa ngobrol lewat twitter dengan Boeing. Udah lama banget ngga ketemu. Dulu waktu kelas 6 gue sms dia, dia ngaku jadi orang yang namanya Dana. Padahal gue tau kalo itu tuh sebenernya si Boeing. Gue tau, soalnya kan Boeing PerDANA Kusuma, pasti dia ambil dari namanya, hahaha ketauan lo!!
Di twitter gue sama Boeing sih ngga ngobrol banyak2, soalnya gue bingung mau nanya apalagi sama dia. Masa gue nanya "Sekarang lo suka sama siapa?"?? Kan ngga mungkin banget.
Fuih(lega), walaupun gue cuman ngobrol sedikit sama dia, gue tetep lumayan seneng kok. Hahahaha

B.J. Thomas-Raindrop Keep Falling on My Head

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
Nothin' seems to fit
Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'

So I just did me some talkin' to the sun
And I said I didn't like the way he got things done
Sleepin' on the job
Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'

But there's one thing I know
The blues they send to meet me won't defeat me
It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me

[trumpet]

It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me

Perasaan gue yang plin-plan

Duh, gue plin-plan nih. Pilih Stork, Fish, / Enfant nih? Gue bingung.

Kalo Stork itu pinter, lumayan(tampangnya), putih, cool, baik. Tapi masalahnya gue sebel sama sikapnya dia akhir-akhir ini. Menurut gue, dia suka sama temen gue, namanya blablabla(sensor). Tapi waktu gue nanya ke Stork, dia ngga suka sama blablabla. Yang gue sebel lagi dari dia, dia tuh setiap ada gue dan blablabla , dia selalu TP(Tebar Pesona). Terus setiap kali gue mention ke stork, ngga dibales terus. Malahan dia labih sering ngebales mention dari blablabla. Huh

Kalo fish itu pinter, bisa main piano, kata-katanya keran, baik, suka ngelawak(walaupun ngga lucu). Tapi masalahnya gue ngga terlalu kenal + deket sama dia. Walaupun ibu gue sama ibu fish deket banget, gue ngga deket deh pokoknya sama si fish. Huaah

And the last,
Kalo Enfant itu lucu, lumayan, baik, suka ngga jelas sendiri, dan lain lain. Gue sih deket sama dia(ya iyalah, gue kan sekelas sama dia).



Udah deh pokoknya gue super duper BINGUNG!!! OMG!

Penyesalan(apabanget)

Hi guys. Maaf ya udah lama ngga nerbitin post baru, soalnya gue jarang buka blog. hehehe, Maaf ya?